Finding my Focus
Then there are gentle reminders that God's got me. He can handle this and again the verse he gave me in the beginning comes to mind. "Not by might nor by power, but by My Spirit,' says the LORD of hosts. What are you O Great Mountain, before Zerubbabel, you will become level ground. Then he will bring out the capstone to shouts of Grace to it." Again he speaks to me in this verse. It's not just about adopting he whispers. Having the adoption final isn't the end. I'm at work. I'm working to bring healing, and it will be long, but I will do it. You will see my Grace. Stop trying to do it in your own power and strength. It's not all on you. It's not your responsibility, It's My Spirit. My Grace is sufficient. I take a deep breath. Breathing in his promises, his renewed strength.
Then in the same moment I look back in the rear-view mirror and her little voice starts to belt out the song that's on the radio. She sings to the Lord, with her eyes closed. "Take my heart. My bruises and my scars. I'm coming as I am, the only way I can! I can't forget from where I've come or what my hearts been rescued from, but when they ask me who I owe my whole life to, I'll point to you! " And I feel it welling up in my heart, hope rising. Yes Lord, take her bruises and her scars, may it all point to you. Not by my power, but by your Spirit Lord, you are at work. I will choose to focus on what you ARE doing.
To listen to the full song she was belting out, check out it out here.